Abby Robards

1. Angry words
2. Silence
3. Hexes
4. Slammed doors.
5. Thrown vases.
6. Tears.
7. His work.
8. My frustration
9. Staying.
10. Leaving.

Honestly? We stayed together too long. The divorce was the most merciful thing we ever did for each other, and our children. I love William, and I always will. Chances are, he's ruined me for most other men. It's hard to compare to Will Robards, and he is the standard to which all others will be measured against. That said, we simply were not made to be the love of each other's life. Not when what we want out of life is so vastly different.

I was very young when I fell in love with him. I was very young when I married him. We were very young when we had our son, Andrew. Truth be told, we had already been raising a child before Drew. Will's father died when his little brother was very young. His mother was older, and Noah needed parents who could keep up with him. I think in some ways Noah resented me for trying to steal his brother away. I never resented him for being the first child in Will's life. He may not believe it, but it is true. I've resented a lot of things when it comes to my life as a Robards, but never that.

Will became an auror like his father, and then went on to be a Hit Wizard. I was terrified for him, but it was the life he always wanted for himself. It worked well, for himself. It was not the life for me. I didn't want it to be the life for our children. Noor is our little girl. We tried to stay together for the children, but it became painfully clear that it was hurting the kids by doing so. They needed their parents to be able to stand to be in the same room together. We couldn't do that as long as we were married.

Divorce is rare in our world. Our families were ashamed of us. I guess I was ashamed of us too. Looking back I realize it wasn't just the right thing to do, it was the only thing to do. Unfortunately we stayed together so long that we began to hate each other. Now we're working on liking each other as people again. Not just for our children's sake, but for our own sake too.